Sunday, September 19, 2010

Casting into the deep...

So...I'm surprising myself these days.  I am NOT a morning person by any stretch of the imagination.  My usual morning routine is wake up, run out door. 

I think I've turned over a new leaf. I have to leave my house by 7.  I've been getting up between 6 and 6:15a.m. (sometimes 6:30 ha!).  I have an automatic coffee maker so I take my cup o' Joe and put on Pray-as-you-go.  I've blogged about this website before.  It's really really a great way to pray.  It's 10-13 minutes, has some world music, the reading of the day and thoughtful reflection questions.  I've found that centering myself for these 10ish minutes has been a great start to my day. 

Last week, or the week before (I forget which day), one of the readings was Jesus telling the guys to cast their nets into the deep waters.  I was praying and that image of casting into the deep really struck me.   I spent the last 11 months "casting" a lot into my deepest spaces and being challenged with the hardest situations of my life.  I still find that underneath the tough stuff (ya know...hurt and other yuck) is love...just love.  That is when I have the rare occasion and I'm more comforted and can say, "Ok God...I don't like this, but you're in charge. I have the love."   The other times are much more frustrating.  I guess if I keep will come.  Not a big fan of the whole surrender thing.  It's not so bad when your deep carries love, though.  I just need to remember that.

Casting into My Deep--9/20/10 KML
Another week...another fishing trip ahead!  Ahoy!


sarah, rsm said...

"it's not so bad when your deep carries love"

i like that.

Anonymous said...

Nun or Laywoman, you're still fun and thoughtful. Thanks for continuing your reflections. Mornings aren't so bad, are they?

Joe in BFE (Beef inFested (E)state.

Sarah said...

Girl, when you make art, you make art :)