- 20 mins
- If I am compelled to pick a certain color I go with it (rather than "pre-planning" what I think looks right)
- Go with the first instinct; don't think about it--if it pops into my head it goes on the paper.
Sometimes I am more disciplined than others. Don't be afraid...mandalas don't have to be this structured, the structure just tricks me into making the most out of connecting with God and my "inner spirit"--oooooh! So I usually start with a blank page, say a little prayer asking the spirit to whatever, and then start drawing, and then I sit with it for another 20 mins ish and see what emerges. Then if it's one that I want to talk about, I share it with either my spiritual director or in this case the retreat director.
BUT...it didn't start out that way...I only had the head in my mandala and this little voice said, "DRAW FEET". And I thought, "Draw feet?" So I remembered my rules and thought, "Oh Great...draw feet." So I did. Well..."DRAW FEET" became quite an insightful reflection the rest of my retreat!
Have you ever meditated on the topic of FEET? WELL I sure haven't. In fact I thought, "WHAT...DRAW FEET? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME." But I'm soooo obedient (ha ha) and gave it some thought that day.
I walked and walked and walked that day on retreat. (From Shorewood to the Art museum for those of you who know Mil-town) so obviously I was aware of my feet in the walking sense. Then I stopped on some rocks by the lake and mapped out what feet could symbolize. It was quite a good reflection if I do say so myself.
If you notice the middle is missing on my little person. So it's like that person has a head and feet. Some of my insights were: "What is my head trying to say?" "Where are my feet trying to take me?" "What's holding me back." Then I concluded with, "My feet will take me places if I trust what's in my head...the only way to do that is to connect them...which would be my heart and gut" Ooooooh...that was good.
So then you have an insight and that's exciting...UNTIL you REALIZE that you should reflect on what "deeper meaning" that insight has on what's going on in your life. UGH...that's the part that I tend to squirm with. In fact...let me give you a visual to what my face says initially when it's time to take "Cool I had an insight" to "UGH...I have to apply it." Well...maybe not that expressive, but you get the idea!
That's when your retreat director comes in and raises questions for you to ponder. Then you reflect on them and sometimes pretend that you didn't think what you just thought...and then you are cornered...INSIGHT WITH DIRECT APPLICATION AND CONNECTION MEANS...INTEGRATION.
Insights schminsights...no...in all reality that is a "good retreat" and I will admit I'm in a much less tornadoey space than I was when I left...so that's good. And really...it's the spirit at work...it's just taking time to recognize it and know when it's time to act.
So...the moral of today's post folks: "Draw Feet"...see where it takes you! RUN AWAY!!!!...with God. And my favorite, "Insights schminsights".